St. Maria Faustina, like the rest of us, often struggled with herself.Â She wrote in her diary:Â âWhen one day I resolved to practice a certain virtue, I lapsed into the vice opposed to that virtue ten times more frequently than on other days.Â In the evening, I was reflecting on why, today, I had lapsed so extraordinarily, and I heard the words: âYou were counting too much on yourself and too little on Me.â And I understood the cause of my lapses.â
Sometimes we, also,Â depend too much upon ourselves; we are such âself-madeâ people that we do not like to admit we need Godâs help and grace.Â Independence and self-reliance are qualities we admire in people, and we considerÂ those who have theseÂ traits to be mature. Â But perhaps true maturity is understanding that we have a Creator and are dependent upon Him for everything:Â âAt this moment, if I am attentive, that is, if I am mature, then I cannot deny that the greatest and most profound evidence is that I do not make myself, I am not making myself.Â I do not give myself being, or the reality which I am.Â I am âgivenâ.Â This is the moment of maturity when I discover myself to be dependent upon something else.â (JuliÃ¡n CarrÃ³n, Traces Magazine)
Once again, God turns everything upside down!Â True maturity, "coming into our own", is in fact coming to the realization that we did not bring ourselves into being; we have been given this life by the One True God.Â St. Faustina learned the hard way that we cannot achieve very much alone; ourÂ God wants us to place our trust in Him and not ourselves.
St. Maria Faustina, pray for us!