"I accept not in my feelings - but with my will, the Will of God. I accept His will - not only for time but for Eternity. In my soul - I can't tell you - how dark it is, how painful, how terrible. - My feelings are so treacherous."
Our feelings easily get the best of us - if we are tired, worried, distraught, or in Mother Teresa's case, simply dry, devoid of any feeling at all. Here was where her years of formation and obedience served her well, because she did not allow those feelings to come between her and God - she continued to serve Him, continued to follow what she believed was His course for her life.
While our emotions certainly have a place and purpose in our lives, we should never be controlled by what we are feeling. It is said that living by our emotions is like letting a madman run the house. For a Christian, that would mean whenever we are feeling joyful or upbeat we would assume that our relationship with God is right on track. Conversely, we would be fooled into thinking that when we are a bit down or depressed that God is somehow upset with us.
We have to remember that Christ is a constant in our lives: stable, secure, and unchanging. The first verses of Psalm 90 reflect this: "Lord, you have been our refuge through all generations. Before the mountains were born, the earth and the world brought forth, from eternity unto eternity, you are God." Mother Teresa, in spite of the seeming emptiness in her soul, sought out that refuge. She struggled constantly without any consolation, but she persevered in service. She remained at the feet of her Lord. It was all she knew how to do. As it turns out, it was the best thing, and it will not be taken from her.
Bl. Mother Teresa, pray for us!